I don't really know how to start this one.
Have you ever come back to an unsafe home after having a good day?
I think it's a qualifier for one of the worst feelings in the world.
There's so much more I could be doing if I wasn't sad about the way things were all the time, and I wish I could just brush it off.
I don't mean to talk in vague terms, It's just a touchy subject, and I can only get so personal when I write these entries.
Anyone who reads this, if you live in a house where your family fight, or you can't rely on your parents for food, or you can't be who you are...
...and any other kind of horrible situation.
I want to tell you that your real family will be those who listen to that pain.
The kinds of people who listen to you, try to help you, who help you feel better. Don't let go of them, and don't feel guilty for spending time with them.
You aren't taking advantage of someone when they try to do nice things with you, even if it feels that way.
The binding chains of trauma and guilt made me feel that way for a long time. When you get used to bearing the emotional problems of your parents from a young age you forget that your existence is worth more than that, your worth extends beyond the emotional support you give people in their hour of need.
My parents spent a lot of my savings recently, so I hope I can start getting some commissions going for my art, or something.
I know he'll never read this, but I hope Toby Fox would be happy to know that the newest Deltarune chapters rekindled that ability to create within me.
What he described, that "Memory the creator couldn't forget", and that when these memories match, that our "heart matches the creator's"...
"The screen flashes like a cursed mirror..."
"The player's heart begins to shine..."
"That player will be changed forever."
I know it sounds stupid, but when I saw the end of Deltarune's newest chapter, I felt my heart begin to shine.
The world has been in crisis.
My world has been in crisis...
But I'm trying to hold onto hope, and trying to remember why I do, so I can tell all of you that need it.
While this blog isn't exactly a "game", It's a step I can take on my journey to make them.
There are so many memories that you may want to forget, but even if they hurt you need to hold onto them.
The worst parts of life are what make the best parts of you, the most understanding parts, the most resilient, the most patient.
So please, Don't Forget.
I'll try not to either.
(Quote Source, I recommend you watch this, it's a lovely video even 5 years later.)